After an absence I found myself one evening in a town where A. was performing. I went round to the back and they told me she had gone to a room in the hotel to change for another part. I followed and entered the room, with a glass of spirits I found that an effeminate young actor was bringing to her. She was half undressed, her beautiful arms and shoulders bare. My arrival was unexpected and she looked at me surprised, I thought coldly, as I reproached her for not keeping a promise she had made to me to touch no alcohol during the tour, but soon her arms were round my neck. She cried like a child. She was bigger and handsomer and healthier. There was not only an increased strength and size, but an increased delicacy and sweetness; her eyes and brows were lovely; there was an indescribable bloom and fragrance on her, such as the sun leaves on a peach; the traveling, country air, and freedom from coitus (had I known it) had enabled her to arrive at her true self, not only a beautiful woman, but a woman of fascination, of wit, vivacity and universal _camaraderie_. Her face was like the dawn; all my fears and jealousy left me like a cloud that melts before the sun. I remember the look on her face as she embraced me in bed that night. It had just the very smallest touch of sensuality, but was more like some beautiful child's who is being caressed by one she loves; this divine, drowsy-eyed, adorable look I had never seen on her face before--nor have I since.
We fell back into our old lustful ways. Later on A. became ill and the black devil of epilepsy returned. I became gloomy...A restlessness and selfish brutality came over me; our love and peace were gone. I persuaded A. to go to Melbourne and look out for an engagement. The day before she was to sail we went to Glenelg for a trip. The sea air, as often happened, precipitated A.'s fits. We had gone down to the pier and A. said she felt bad. I just managed to support her to the hotel before she became stiff, and I made some impatient remark (for she nearly dragged me down) which she heard, not being quite unconscious and said half incoherently and very pitiably: "Be kind, oh, be kind!" repeating it after consciousness left her. Her heart had been breaking all day at the prospect of parting, and also, I expect, because I was so ready to part with her. That moment was a crisis in my life. I was in a murderous humor, but she looked so unutterably wretched that it seemed impossible to be anything but kind. I made myself speak lovingly to her, in moments of partial consciousness, hired a room, carried her up, and nursed her and petted her all night. The act of self-control, and forcing myself to be kind whatever I felt, became a habit in time, a sort of second nature.
In a few days she sailed. When she had gone I was remorseful and mad with myself. How could I let her go by herself? I resolved to follow her as speedily as possible, and did so.
If I remember rightly I came to the conclusion about this time that we ought not to have coition unless we felt great love for each other. It seemed to corroborate this to a certain extent that A. always seemed more electric and pleasant to the touch when we had connection for love and not for lust. Leave it to Nature, I would say to myself. I began to feel how much my struggles, efforts and temperate living had improved me. I had more self-respect, though something of the old self-consciousness was still left. I did not get better continuously, but in an up-and-down zigzag. I still had moods of rage approaching madness and periods of neurotic depression. Long walks decidedly helped to cure me, and the sea, sun, wind, clouds and trees colored my dreams at night very sweetly. I frequently dreamed I was walking in orchards or forests, and a deeper, slightly melancholy but potent savor, as of a diviner destiny, was on my soul.
After a long absence, during which she had frequently been ill, A. joined me. I could see she was recovering from fits, which I began to realize that she had more frequently in absence from me, and also from drinking, perhaps. She was small and thin, but fresh and sweet as honey, and all signs of fits and tempers passed away from her face, so wonderful in its changes. I had become so healthy through my abstinence, temperance and long walks that our meeting was a new revelation to me of how delicate, fragrant and divine a convalescent woman may be. She was glad and surprised to see me looking so well, and if she put her hand on my arm I felt a joyous thrill. I was certainly a better man for abstaining and she a better woman and I determined not to have connection unless we were carried away by our love. As a matter of fact we did not give way to excess, though we were very loving. I tried to persuade myself that we had not gone back to our old ways, but I could not do so long.
Miss T. put in an appearance every day. She did not look so innocent, but as it was no business of mine I did not trouble. She seemed more attached to A. than ever...A. was still very loving with me, but it was an effort to me to keep up to her pitch, and when A. proposed to go to Melbourne with Miss T, to sell off the furniture before settling in Adelaide, I was rather glad of the opportunity of abstaining from coitus and of watching myself to see if I again improved. When A. and Miss T. came to see me before going down to the steamer, A. was nearly crying and Miss T., changed from the old welcome friend, was not only pale and anxious, but looked guilty as if she had some treachery in her mind; she could not meet my eye. I thought less of it then than afterwards. And once more I took long walks at night and rose early to catch the freshness of the mornings.
Some time before this I had read a book advocating a vegetarian diet, and at this time I chanced to read Pater's beautiful "Denys L'Auxerrois," the imaginary portrait of a young vine-dresser, who was attractive beyond ordinary mortals and lived, until his fall and deterioration, on fruit and water. The words, "a natural simplicity in living" remained in my memory. I resolved to read more carefully the book on scientific diet. Who can say, I thought, what changes for the better may come to me if I live on a strictly scientific and natural diet?
I fasted one whole day, and then had a breakfast of cherries, in the middle of the day a meal of fruit, and walking in the afternoon--a gray, rainy day--I felt so light, so different, and the gray sky looked so sweet and familiar, that I was reminded of the luminous visions of my boyhood. It was a distinct revelation. This Pan-like, almost Bacchic feeling, did not last, however, nor was I always able to maintain my new method of diet, though I tried to do so. I made the attempt, however, but I imagine I was more than usually run down. I would walk miles in the hope of feeling less restless. One holiday I walked down to Glenelg, having only had grapes for my dinner, and lying on the beach I looked through a strong binocular glass I had borrowed at the girls bathing. And the beauty of their faces in their frames of hair, of their arms, of their figures, seen through their wet clinging dresses, satisfied me and filled me with joy, gave me for a short time that peace and content--in harmony with the strong sunlight on the waves and the rhythmic surf on the shore--I was seeking. The summer evenings on the pier or along the beach had a peculiar savor; one felt the youth and beauty there even on dark nights, the air was fragrant with them, white dresses and summer hats disappearing down the beach or over the sand hills. It was easy--doubtless justifiable sometimes--to put a lewd construction on these disappearances; but I felt it need not have been so; that it was not necessary that youth and beauty, even the sexual act itself if led up to by love, should be a subject of giggling and sniggering. I always left the beach and its flitting summer dresses with a sigh.
A., after writing once, ceased writing at all and once more her mother and I were left in a state of anxiety and suspense. At last I determined to go to Melbourne to look for her, the only clue I had being a remark in her letter that a certain actor was giving her an engagement. In Melbourne I could not find any traces of her for some days and what traces I did find of her were not calculated to allay my anxious fears. One hotel-keeper told me that some one of A's name had stayed there with another hussy (giving Miss T's stage name): "There were nice carryings on with the pair of them." I thought of Miss T's strange looks, but could not imagine what hold she had on A., for A. loved me, I knew. I seemed to be in an inextricable maze. I could settle to nothing and was thinking of applying to the police when I heard that the actor A. had mentioned had taken his company to the Gippsland lakes. I followed to Sale, found the actor and was told that A. was not there. "She slipped me at the last moment," he said, "and remained in Melbourne." I returned to my lodgings, with my anxiety and nervous restlessness increased tenfold. But suddenly my fear and restlessness left me like a cloud. I felt quiet, young, peaceful, able to enjoy the country, A. was doubtless all right and would be able to explain her silence. I undressed leisurely and happily, thinking of the stars.
The next day, Sunday, I awoke refreshed and still at peace. After breakfast, hearing children's voices, I went out into the garden and there was a collision of souls who somehow were affinities. A young girl about twelve or younger with a fine presence and handsome face fixed her eyes on me for half a minute and then came and sat on my knee. She was one of those children I am accustomed to call "love-children," because they are so much brighter, healthier, larger and more loving than others. I always imagine more love went to their making. We fell in love and she said, stroking my beard, "Oh, you are pretty!" and I said, "And so are you!" We were so affectionate that the servant called the child away and I went for a walk, finding my little sweetheart waiting for me on my return. The touch of her hand was electric and her voice fresh and musical. I kissed her, but had become more self-conscious since the morning and wondered if her mother or the servant were looking, or even of they would appear. I was not so frank and natural as my little chum. I have often thought of her since. She had the breadth of forehead, the strength and yet lightness of limb, together with the hands and feet, not too small, that I always imagine the dwellers in Paradise will have.
I returned to Melbourne and continued trying to find A. At the same time I commenced in earnest to live on fruit and brown bread only, and enjoyed better tone and health every day, so that it was a joy to walk down the street in the sun and exchange glances with passengers à la old Walt. One day in the Botanical Gardens veils seemed to be lifted off my eyes. I could look straight at the sun and taking my note of color from that golden light I turned my eyes on the flowers, the mown grass, the trees, and for the first time perceived what a heavenly color green is, what divine companions flowers are, and what a blue sky really means. For half an hour I was in Paradise, and to complete my joy Nature revealed to me a new and unexpected secret.
I was lying on a bench, basking, and my silk shirt coming open the strong sun made its way to my breast and presently I felt a totally new sensation there. I had discovered the last joy of the skin. My skin, fed by healthy fruit-made blood, must have functioned normally under the excitation of the sun just then (for a brief space only, alas!). I cannot describe the joy, any more than I could describe the taste of a peach to one who has only eaten apples: it was satisfying, divine. I opened my shirt wider, but the feeling only spread faintly, and indeed this halcyon sunny hour terminated in a restlessness that sent me walking into town to look for A.
At last I heard, not of A., but of Miss T. She was in a ballet. I went round during rehearsal and while waiting entered into conversation with a little chorus girl with a good face, who was sewing. On my telling her whom I was seeking she stopped sewing and looked at me quickly: "Oh, are you her husband? I know her. _I have seen them together_." She looked as if she were going to tell me something, but merely shook her old-fashioned head in a mournful, indescribable way, saying "Why don't you keep your wife with you?" I went to the door and presently saw Miss T. She tried to avoid me, I thought, and looked more vicious than ever, but after a minute's thought reluctantly told me where she and A. were staying. To hide my fears and suspicions I had assumed a careless demeanor, but I think I should have strangled her had she refused to tell me. I hastily went to the place indicated and going up the stairs (to the astonishment of the people) opened the door and found myself face to face with A.--but how changed! She had the hard, harlot, loveless look I detested. I felt for a few minutes that I did not love her, and she regarded me coldly too, but presently old habits reinstated themselves. She put out her hands, very pitiably, and then was sobbing in my arms. I could get nothing out of her but sobs, and to this day do not know where she spent all these weeks nor why she did not write.
Miss T. came in after rehearsal, pale and hard-faced. I greeted her politely, but was watching her, trying to puzzle out why A. did not look as she usually did after long absence from coition. Miss T. took another room in the same house and was soon joined by another ballet girl, young and very pretty, who soon began to have fits. A. was always crying until Miss T. went away with her pretty friend. I knew nothing, could hardly be said to suspect anything definite, and yet I pitied that pretty girl whose eyes looked so helpless and appealing.
I set to work again. But I continued to live on fruit and bread, and taking off my clothes I would stand up at the window in the sun. A lot of prostitutes, however, who lived at the back saw me and were scandalized or shocked or thought me mad. The landlady heard of it and spoke to A. So I had to desist from my glorious sun-baths.
We slept on a single bed, and though I did my best to avoid coitus (I wanted to wait and think out some theory of it), A., who knew nothing of this, wanted to resume our old habits, and finally I surrendered. But my sufferings next day were intense, and I had the sense of having fallen from some high estate. My thoughts were divided between two theories: one that our misery was caused by our diet, more or less; the other that we had fallen into some error as regards coitus, and this was becoming almost a certainty with me.
There is one incident I think worthy of note which happened before the "fall" just mentioned and when I was living on fruit and in splendid health. At a performance I saw a girl on the stage with handsome legs in tights, and once as she straightened her leg the knee-cap going into position gave me such a strange and keen joy--of that quality I call divine or musical--that I was like one suddenly awakened to the divinity and beauty of the female form. The joy was so keen and yet peaceful, familiar, and subjective that I could not help comparing it to a happy chemical change in the tissues of my own brain. Like the unexpected functioning of my skin in the sun it was a sign of a partial return to a normal condition, another glimpse of Paradise.
I stuck to my new diet and gained a fresh elation and joy in life. Gradually clothes became insupportable, and I went down to the beach as often as possible to take them off, and at nights, beside the patient and astonished A., I would lie naked. One evening, passing some grass, I looked over the fence like a gipsy and felt a longing to take off my clothes and sleep in the grass all night. It was of course impossible. And A. looked unhappily in my face; she began to think her mother, who now thought I was mad, must be right.
That night I woke up and found myself having coition. I was angry and felt I had been put back in my progress, but a fever of lust now came over me. I would sit under the tap and let the cold water run over me to conquer the fever, but at the end of a week my hopes were frustrated and I even turned against my natural diet, on which I had made flesh. A., as I expected, went through her usual fits, and slowly recovered. (If we had connection only once she in about three weeks had a mild attack of fits; if we had coition more than once the fits were more severe.) I relapsed more than once and as a means of impressing my resolution for future abstinence I would walk for miles in the middle of pitch-black nights...
Miss T. came over to Adelaide and as I knew nothing definite against her and heard that she was engaged, I thought perhaps my suspicions were unfounded and was friendly. But one day in town I saw her and A. on a tram going out to our cottage. Even then my suspicions might not have been awakened, but I saw Miss T. say something rapidly to A., and A. called out to me, "Will you be coming home soon?" And I answered "No." When the tram had gone on I found myself vaguely wondering what Miss T. wanted to know that for, for my perceptions were becoming acute enough to understand women's ways. In another minute I was walking rapidly home. When I came to the door it was locked. I knocked and knocked and no one came. I called out and threatened to kick in the door. Still no one came. Mad with rage I commenced to put my threat into execution, when the door was opened by Miss T., half-naked, in her petticoats, and pale as death, but no longer defiant. "So I've caught you, have I?" I _looked_, but could not trust myself to speak. Wondering why A. did not appear I went into the bedroom. She was lying on the bed, just as Miss T. had left her, on the verge of a fit, and on seeing me she held out her hands piteously, and when I stooped over her she whispered, "Send her away, send her away." Then she became unconscious and going into the next room I ordered Miss T. (who had managed to scramble on her dress) out of the house. I spoke scornfully as if addressing a dog, and she slinked out with a malignant but cowed look I hope never to see on a woman's face again. What they had been doing with their clothes off I do not know; women will rather die than confess. When A. had recovered from her fit she denied that there had been anything between them, and stuck to it doggedly, but with such a forlorn look I had not the heart to prosecute my inquiries.
For my part, all the efforts I had been making for so long seemed for a time to be in vain; for some weeks I sank into a sort of satyriasis, and even my anger against Miss T. turned to a prurient curiosity. At the same time I was not always able to adhere to my diet. But both as regards coition and diet I was still fighting, and on the whole successfully. My fits of temper, however, were excessive and my ennui became gloomy despair. One day I blasphemed on crossing the Park and spoke contemptuously of "God and his twopenny ha'penny revolving balls," referring to the planetary system. But for long walks I should have gone mad. A. was drinking in the intervals of her fits. I found half-empty bottles of wine hidden away. This did not improve my temper, and one day--this was when she was well and up--I struck her a heavy blow on the face, and she aimed a glass decanter at me. She went home to her mother and I lived alone in the cottage. I heard soon afterwards that her husband had come back and that they had made it up. Our parting was not, however, destined to be final.
Even out of that month's sufferings I made capital. I was better after my tendency to lubricity, my gloom, rage, restlessness and degradation. They had been but the irritations of convalescence.
INDEX OF AUTHORS.
Abrantès, duchesse d' Adler Albucasis Alexander, H.C.B. Amatus Lusitanus Ammon Andersen Andriezen Aquinas Aristophanes Aristotle Averroes Avicenna Aubrey Aulnoy, Madame d' Baer Ball Ballantyne, J.W. Bancroft, H.H. Barker, Fordyce Barnes, R. Bartholin Bayle Beale, G.B. Bechterew Beck, J.R. Becker Bell, Sir C. Bell, Sanford Belletrud Beneden Bergh Bianchi Biérent Binet Bischoff, T.L.W. Bloch, J. Blondel Blumenbach Blunt, J.J. Boas Boccaccio Boeteau Bois, J. Bois-Reymond, E. du Bölsche Booth, D.S. Booth, J. Bouchereau Bouchet Bourke, J.G. Boveri Brand Braun Brantôme Brehm Breitenstein Brénier de Montmorand Brénot Brouardel Brown-Séquard Brügelmann Buckman, S.S. Bucknill Bunge Burchard Burdach Burton, Robert Buschan Busdraghi Cabanis Campbell, J.F. Campbell, H. Carpenter, E. Casanova Cascella Castelnau Catullus Cecca Celsus Chapman, C.W. Charcot Chaucer Chaulant Chevalier Chidley, W. Cladel, J. Clement, of Alexandria Coe Coen Collineau Colman, W.S. Columbus, R. Cook, G.W. Crawley Cumston Cuvier Cyples Dabney Darwin, C. Darwin, E. Daumas Dearborn, G. Dembo Deniker Dessoir, Max Dickinson, R.L. Diderot Disselhorst Donaldson, H.H. Douglas, C. Drähms Dühren, E. Dufougère Dufour Dulaure Duncan, Matthews East, A. Edgar, Clifton Ellis, Havelock Engelmann Erotion Esbach Eschricht Espinas Eulenburg Evans Ezekiel Fabricius Fallopius Féré Fichstedt Flood, E. Florence Fothergill, Milner Frazer, J.G. Freud Freyer Froriep Fuchs Fürbringer Galen Gardiner, C.F. Garnier Gautier, A. Gautier, T. Gellhoen Gerhard, A. Giles, A. Godin Goethe Goncourt, E. de Gopcevic Goron Gould Gow Graaf, de Griffiths Groos, K. Gualino Guéniot Guibaut Guillereau Guinard Guttceit Hack Haddon Haig Hall, G. Stanley Haller Hamilton, A. Hammond Hardy, Thomas Hartland, E.S. Harvey Hegar Henderson, J. Henle Hennig Herman Herodotus Herrick Heusinger Hewitt, Graily Hippocrates Hirst Hislop, J.T. Hoche Horrocks Howard, W.L. Howell Howitt, A.W. Hrdlicka Hughes, C.H. Hunter, John Hunter, William Huysmans Hyades Hyrtl Jacobi Jacoby, P. Jahn Janet Janke Jastreboff Jenkyns, J. Johnston, G.A. Johnston, Sir H.H. Jonson, Ben Juvenal Kaltenbach Kelly, H. Kepler Kiernan, J.G. Kisch Kleinpaul Kobelt Kocher Kohlbrugge Kolbein Krafft-Ebing Krauss Lamb, D.S. Landes, L. de Lane Lasègue Laurent, E. Lawrence, Sir W. Laycock Levi Licetus Liébault Liétaud Lipps Litzmann Lombroso Lorion Lortet Lucas, J.C. Lucretius Lunier Luschka Lusini Lydston Macdonald, A. MacGillicuddy McKay, A. Mackay, W.J.S. Mackenzie, J. Magnan Malebranche Mantegazza Marandon de Montyel Marc Marro Marshall, H.R. Martial Martin, J.M.H. Martineau Maschka Masterman Matignon Mattel McMordie Mercier Meredith, Ellis Middleton, T. Mirabeau Mitchell, Sir A. Moll Mongeri Morache Moraglia Morris, R.T. Morselli Motet Moulin, J. Mansell Müller, J. Mundé, P.
Näcke Neale, R. Neri Nicholson, H.O. Nina Rodrigues Obici Onanoff Ottolenghi Ovid Pacheco Palfyn Park, Mungo Papillault Pasini Paterson, A.R. Paulini Paulus Æginetus Pearse, W.H. Pearson, Karl Pechuel-Loesche Pelanda Pennant Penta Pfaff Pierer Pillon Pinæus Pinard Pitre, C. Pitres Pittard Plant Plautus Pliny Ploss Poehl Polemon Pollux Porta, Della Power Pyle Raymond Régis Régnier, H. de Reinach, S. Renooz, Céline Restif de la Bretonne Retterer, E. Reynolds, A.R. Rhys, J. Ribot Riedel Rimbaud Riolan Robinson, Bryan Robinson, Louis Rodin Roederer Roons, R.P. Rosse, Irving Roth, W. Rothe Roubaud Rousseau Routh, C.H.F. Rufus Russell, W.
Sade, de Salmon, W. Scherzer Schinz Schmiedeberg Schreiner Schrenck-Notzing Schurig Scott, Colin Scripture, E.W. Seerley Seligmann Sellheim Shakespeare Shattock Shufeldt Silk, J.F.W. Simon, H. Simpson, Sir J. Sims, Marion Smith, Sir A. Smith, Haywood Sömmering Soranus Spigelius Stahl, F.A. Stanton Stendhal Stengel Stern, B. Stevens, Vaughan Stieda Stratz Stubbs Suidas Sukhanoff Sullivan, W.C. Sutherland, W.D. Sutton, Bland Swift Tarde Tardieu Tarnier Taxil Theocritus Thoinot Thompson, W.L. Thomson, J. Tilt Toff Tourdes, G. Tridandani Trochon Vahness Valentin Varigny, H de Variot, G. Varro Vaschide Vatsyayana Venette Venturi Vesalius Vinay Vinci, L. da Voigt Voisin, J. Vurpas Wagner, R. Waldeyer Walker, G. Wallace, A.W. Warton Wasserschleben Weininger, O. Wellhausen Werner Wernich West, J.P. Wharton Wilhelm, Eugen Wilkin, G. Wilkinson, A.D. Williams, J.W. Whitridge Williamson, C.F. Wolff, B. Wollstonecraft, Mary Wordsworth Wychgel Youatt Zaborsky Zoppi Zimmer Zola INDEX OF SUBJECTS.
Abyssinians, coitus among Acquired element in erotic symbolism Acromegaly and sexual development Alcohol, aphrodisiac effects of Algolagnia, in relation to scatologic symbolism as a form of erotic symbolism Anæsthesia, sexual Anæsthetics in relation to sexual excitement Anaphrodisiacs Animal copulation, attraction of Animals, detumescence in Annamites, coitus among Antipathies of pregnant women Anus in relation to pubic hair as an erogenous zone Apes, sexual organs of sexual congress in Aphrodisiacs Apples, longings of women for Arabs, penis in Artist, compared to lover Associations of contiguity and resemblance in erotic symbolism Australian method of sexual congress Auto-suggestions, longings of pregnancy as Bartholin, glands of Beard in relation to sexual development Beauty, the objective element in Bestiality Bladder in relation to sexual excitement Blood during pregnancy Blood-pressure during detumescence Breasts, and erotic temperament during pregnancy Bromide as an anaphrodisiac Bulbo-cavernous reflex Camphor as an anaphrodisiac Cantharides, effects of Castration, results of Celery as an aphrodisiac Children, attracted to foot to scatology to copulation of animals to hair food impulses of Chinese, foot-fetichism of Circulatory conditions during coitus during pregnancy Clitoris Clothes, erotic fascination of Coitus, the phenomena of the methods of ethnic variations in methods of respiratory and circulatory conditions during interruptus as a cause of vasomotor disturbance glandular activity during motor activity during psychic state during serious effects of Congenital element in erotic symbolism Contiguity in erotic symbolism, associations of Coprolagnia Coprophagia, religious and sexual Courtship Crystallization, Stendhal's Defile, the impulse to Distillatio Dog, human sexual intercourse with Dynamometric experiments during sexual excitement Ejaculation, the mechanism of Embryo Epilepsy and exhibitionism compared to coitus as a result of coitus Erectility during coitus Erogenous zone, anus as lips as Erotic intoxication Erotic temperament Eryngo as an aphrodisiac Ethnic variations in coitus Etruscans, sexual significance of foot among Eunuchs, characteristics of Exercise on sexual organs, influence of Exhibitionism Eyes during detumescence in relation to erotic temperament darker at puberty Face during detumescence, expression of Fæces as a drug Fecundation, the phenomena of artificial Feet as a sexual symbol, uncovering Fellatio Fetichism, erotic Flagellation Foot-fetichism, _see_ Shoe-fetichism. Fuegians, penis in Fur as a fetich Garments as fetiches Genital organs as fetiches Goat as a human sexual fetich Greeks, sexual significance of foot among Hair as a fetich despoilers of pubic darkens at puberty in relation to erotic temperament in pregnancy Hand as fetich Heart during pregnancy Homosexuality as a form of erotic symbolism Hottentot apron Hymen Hyperæsthesia, sexual Hypertrichosis universalis Hysteria Ideal coprolagnia Idiocy as result of maternal impressions Idiots, sexual development of Impregnation without rupture of hymen without conjunctions artificial Impressions, maternal Intellectual work, relation of pregnancy to Intoxication, erotic Japanese, labia majora in Joy, the expression of Kiss, the Kleptomania and pregnancy Knee-jerk in pregnancy Labia majora Labia minora Larynx in relation to sexual state Linea fusca Lips, as an erogenous zone in relation to erotic temperament Longings of pregnancy theories of as auto-suggestions physiological basis of relation to the longings of childhood Masochism, in relation to shoe-fetichism in relation to scatalogic symbolism in relation to exhibitionism of nates as a form of erotic symbolism Masturbation and pubic hair hypertrophy of clitoris ascribed to part played by clitoris in why some theologians permitted phenomena during Maternal element in sexual love Maternal impressions Menstruation in relation to coitus metabolism during in relation to sickness of pregnancy compared to pregnancy Mental state during pregnancy Metabolism during pregnancy Mixoscopic zoophilia Modesty a supposed sign of virginity Mohammedan method of sexual congress Mole as a fetich Mongol peoples, foot fetichism among various Mons veneris Mordvins, foot-fetichism among Motor activity during coitus Mouth in relation to erotic temperament Muscular movements during coitus Nates in relation to coprolagnia in relation to exhibitionism in relation to erotic temperament Necrophilia Negative fetich Negro, penis in labia majora in clitoris in labia minora in method of sexual congress among Nervous system during pregnancy Neurasthenia cordis vasomotoria Nipples, pigmentation of Nudity, religious Nutrition, symbolism of Nymphæ Nymphomania Obsessions of scruple longings of pregnancy as Obsessional exhibitionism Odor an alleged sign of defloration Onion as an aphrodisiac Opium as an aphrodisiac Organs, sexual Ova and spermatozoa, union of Ovarian extract, effects of Ovaries, function of analogy of with thyroid Paidophilia Pain and erotic symbolism Pedicatio Pelvic development and erotic temperament Pelvic floor, variability of Pelvic inclination Penis Penis-fetichism Phallic worship Physiognomists and the erotic temperament Pica Pigmentation in relation to erotic temperament in pregnancy Potatoes, the supposed aphrodisiac effects of Precocity, influence of Pregnancy and pigmentation psychic state in sexual desire during relation of to intellectual work Presbyophilia Prostate Prostitutes, external genitals of stature of Psychic exhibitionism Psychic condition during coitus Puberty, the phenomena of pigmentary changes at Pubic hair Puericulture Pygmalionism Quadrupedal method of coitus in man Rachitic, sexual tendencies of the Reflex, bulbo-cavernous Reflexes during pregnancy Religious scatalogic symbolism Resemblance in erotic symbolism, associations of Respiration during coitus Responsibility of pregnant women Restif de la Bretonne's shoe-fetichism Romans, sexual significance of foot among methods of coitus among Rousseau Rue as an anaphrodisiac