Oe ak help a man up from the gutter, raise the hat respect- fully to each other, be the humble servant to each other etc.— one thinks it is pride to learn this point of view—on the con- trary, it is humility, whereas it is pride to fancy that one ac- 550 Supplement tually can be something for another person.—Pap. III B 122:13 n.d., 1841-42 In margin of draft; see 295:35-36: Faithless men of that sort are often described by the faithful as negative, while they fancy themselves to be positive. This can indeed be granted them. Portable organs [Positiver] they are, at least barrel organs, but of all instruments they are also the most boring to play.—Pap. III B 122:14 n.d., 1841-42 From draft; see 296:21: Stay clear of marriage. Of all ludicrous things, marriage is the most ludicrous. Add to this what is most doubtful of all, that it has intrinsic ethical qualifications.—Pap. II] B 122:15 n.d., 1841-42 See 296:22-28: Many people are afraid of eternity—if we can only endure time, certainly we can cope with eternity. Therefore when one hears the lovers swear mutual love for all eternity, it does not mean nearly as much as when they pledge love for time, be- cause one who pledges love for eternity can always answer: You will have to excuse me for time.—JP I 835 (Pap. III A 124) n.d., 1841 From draft; see 297:11-28: For marrying, I have no time, for having children, even less.
Everything would depend upon whether two persons ac- tually could become one, but I shall have to think about that first. Ifit were such an easy matter, then why all the moral ear- nestness with which marriage is saturated. Nature is able to do it, but since nature is temporality subject to a sequence, this unity is only momentary. Moreover, very soon an unsettled account comes between the happy married couple, if nothing else, then children, two, three, etc. according to time and op- Either/Or, I 551 Either/Or, I 551 portunity, which now the couple quite inconsistently regard as a great good fortune, without considering that the unity is more and more endangered. One also sees the ludicrousness implicit in family life in the solidarity with which families seek to create a phalanx against the mockers, therefore the avidity and greediness with which they grasp at every engagement and seek by all kinds of shock methods to prevent a backslid- ing.
But if it is impossible to become one in marriage, then nei- ther can one stroll about on highways and byways. If one has a wife, it is difficult, although there are examples of gypsy women who have carried their husbands on their backs—and yet this will not do. If one has a wife and perhaps children, it is even more difficult; if one has a wife and children, it is impos- sible. It is all very fine to walk with someone on one’s arm, but it must always be a casual relationship, not—what a dreadful thought!—a lebenslanglich [life-long] one.
And if it were possible to become one in marriage, then of course there would be the danger that the husband would have to lie in confinement, as is indeed the custom in some societies.
As a married man, one is subjected to the whole bourgeois atmosphere, new customs.—Pap. III B 122:16 n.d. 1841-42 From draft; see 297:29-35: Nothing corrupts a man more than falling in love. Take a young man, spirited as an Arabian horse; let him fall in love and he is lost. At the outset, the woman is proud, later she is weak, then she cries, then he cries with her, and then the fam- ily blubbering is in full swing. Thereupon the poets and mar- ried men come forward and say: Ah, no one can love like a woman, which is true in the same sense as no big dog is as watchful as a little dog, and this is because the little dog is afraid. Only a man is able to love; a woman’s love is weakness. And dissimulation, just like the screams of a woman in labor, which according to the doctors are not because of the pain but because she prevents the pain with this scream; therefore one must never believe a woman’s scream, and the best thing to do is to let them scream.—Pap. III B 122:17 n.d., 1841-42 1 B 122:17 172 ill B 122:17 173 552 Supplement From draft; see 299:9-10: Teasing is on the whole an excellent means of exploration. Families and certain individuals who in and by themselves are far too soft must be provided with a little stimulation. One ig- nores them, for example, and then suddenly without any cer- emony one returns to the attack. At times one intervenes mas- culinely in existence, at times femininely.—Pap. HI B 122:18 n.d., 1841-42 From draft; see 300:8-9: The eye with which one sees actuality must be changed con- tinually. At times one sees it ideally. It is a divine world in which we live; in that light it becomes especially ludicrous. Or one sees it caricatured. Sometimes one sees it through an infi- nite magnifying glass, at times through an equally infinitely reducing glass—all in order to have a disturbing effect. One thereby always shocks people, and it is exceedingly laughable to see their expressions.—Pap. III B 122:19 n.d., 1841-42 From draft; see 300:22-31: Pads the most insignificant thing can accidentally become worth more than all the well-prepared joys put together. I was walking one day, sunk in my own thoughts, came to a stand- still, almost depressed, when as I look up my eyes fall on a sign that says: Role-casting Done Here.!*° The effect was bound- less.—Pap. II B 122:20 n.d., 1841-42 Underlined in copy of Either/Or, I; see 301: The Seducer’s Diary Addition: In a review in Forposten, I see that it is quite properly pointed out that this narrative is not called a seducer’s diary but the se- ducer’s, suggesting that the method really is of prime impor- Either/Or, I 553 tance, not the portrayal of either Johannes or Cordelia.—JP V 5633 (Pap. IV A 231) [March 26], 1843 Deleted from final draft; see 302:1-5: sa passione predominante est la principiante from Don Giovanni in the second great servant-aria (must be checked) —Pap. Ill B 67 n.d., 1841-42 Deleted from the page preceding the final draft of “The Seducer’s Di- ary”’; see 303:14: In Victor Eremita’s preface to ‘“The Seducer’s Diary,” it should be remarked: If Denmark had a very cultivated esthe- tician, I would ask him to answer the question whether he believes that this work has been produced by a happy or an unhappy individuality, whether it is on the basis of an observation of a happy or an unhappy love, whether he was an extraordinarily faithful or an absolutely faithless person. —Pap. Il B 170 n.d., 1842 From final draft; see 304:18: Scusqite;no wonder that persons in despair clutch at this last means of diversion.—JP I 806 (Pap. III B 45:1) n.d., 1841-42 Deleted from margin of final draft; see 305:24-25: Mateo this vampyric tendency of his. Just as the shadows in the underworld sucked the blood out of the real human beings and lived so long, so did he.
ae it is shameful to misuse the spirit’s flight in order to serve the flesh; but it will also have its revenge, just as it hap- pened to Bellerophon,!?”?7 who misused Pegasus to visit a woman and plunged into the sea.—Pap. III B 45:2 n.d., 1841 {1 B 45:3 136 TIL B 45:3 137 554 Supplement From final draft; see 306:3-27: Just as in the theater the same play is often performed on both stages, so these two worlds always relate to each other. That other world has nothing whatsoever that does not appear in the actual world, but the actual world of course does have something or other that does not appear in that world. That other world is a picture of it, yet not artistically executed, but an idealized imprint woven into the delicate, almost invisible fabric of this world, just like the Veronica picture of Christ’s face, imprinted in the fine cloth when she wiped the sweat from his face. Now, there are many people who have no eye at all for that world, and in a certain sense one has to be a Sun- day’s child in order to see it. One does not see in that world everything that appears in the actual world; for example, in that world one always sees only those who themselves see it. It is impossible for another person to detect in it the individual who does not himself see it, for to see and to be seen are iden- tical. Now, ifsomeone sees that world—something that to ex- ternal observation will ordinarily appear in such a way that it seems as if one did not see it at all—then he will also in that world be able to discover the actual world surrounding him; he will be able to recognize even individuals. [Deleted: They all appear as shadows, but some so pale and elusive that it is al- most impossible to recognize them; others are more distinctly developed, all in relation to how they see this world. The more they live for actuality, the more faintly they appear in this world; the less, the more they make their appearance in that. The few who are almost palpable actuality appear as shadow pictures with almost three-dimensional effect. These individ- uals, however, appear in the actual world almost as shadows. | But a person’s fading away and practically disappearing from actuality can have two bases—it is either a sickness or a soundness, a difference that is also manifest to the person who pays attention to that world. That is, some shadows, although clear and with sharp outlines, appear as pale and faint, inde- scribably beneficial to the eye, just like the dull work in metals; an even softness is shed over the whole. These are the good Either/Or, I 555 ones. Others appear with equally definite outlines, but dark and spiteful; these are the evil.— Pap. HI B 45:3 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 306:29-307:1: cata t tas but it is very likely that he, even after she, whom he actually has loved, if I dare use that word about him, has be- come meaningless to him, that he now is wilder than ever be- fore. Earlier his seduction seems to have been more subtle. His actual practice has been...—Pap. Ill B 45:4 n.d., 1841-42 Deleted from sketch; see 307:22-308:8: The Seducer— either so young that they had only a presentiment of love [Kjerlighed|—or an awkward venture in the prosaic erotic— —Pap. Ill B 33 n.d., 1841 From sketch; see 307:22-308:8: The Seducer and the Seduced One should not expect to see here a list of seduced girls who have been excluded from human society by the loss of their honor. On the contrary, no change in them was visible to those around them; only he and she knew it; he had infatuated them, knew that they would sacrifice everything for him, and with that he was content— either they were so young that they only had a presentiment of love [Kjerlighed] or daydreamed about love, or he let an outright suitor intervene. When that one had given them a dis- taste for love, he followed, but he did not speak of love; on the contrary, he did everything to neutralize it, developed the in- tellectual side for them so that they even became capable of comprehending love ironically. During all this, he maintained a high degree of intellectual superiority. It was as if he were to- tally insensitive to the sensuous, until suddenly, one single word, a look, like a dagger stab, made them blush; now he MI B34 126 see B34 127 556 Supplement shared their secret—they felt his superiority and had no one to turn to but him—all sorts of mystifications—Pap. III B 34n.d., 1841 Addition to Pap. IV B 34: nie and the fact that I love someone is a secret that may be betrayed only in the stillness of the night, may never be re- peated to the same person, and woe to the one who would force this admission out of me. This is the crowning moment, and how could it be repeated without sounding like a flagrant parody.—Pap. III B 35 n.d., 1841 Deleted from final draft; see 307:37-38: He was like one of those long-legged spiders—briskly and easily and with shrewd eyes, he hurried across life.-—JP I 807 (Pap. UI B 45:5) n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 309:30-31: I once received a letter from her that was written in a smilar frame of mind. I have kept it; it reads as follows: Deleted from margin: The letter [Pap. IH B 38] may be found among my papers. I had worked it out before my journey.— Pap. UI B 45:7 n.d., 1842-43 From sketch; see 309:30-310:11: Letter from the one seduced —He was sometimes so intellectual that I felt my womanly existence annihilated before him, at times so sensual that | trembled before him, and then when he surrendered to me and I embraced him, held him in my arms, he was gone, and I em- braced the cloud—to recollect an expression of his, not as if I did not know this expression before he taught me to know it, Either/Or, I 557 but he has captured me, has taken possession of me so that all my thinking is really of him...—Pap. III B 38 n.d., 1841 In margin of draft; see 310:19-28: In the editor’s preface there will be some corresponding ironic reflections on the comic in A’s situation, how he is in hot water with the other’s secret; there ought to be a bank in which one could deposit secrets. —Pap. II] 47:1 n.d., 1841-42 From draft; see 310:32-311:16: ane aos interleave them according to their stated dates, in or- der thereby to obtain, if possible, a totality. A cursory inspec- tion already shows me that they more or less correspond to one another as far as the dates are concerned; on the other hand, the contents of the diary and of the letters naturally often completely contradict each other.—Pap. III B 47:2 n.d., 1841- 42 Deleted from draft; see 311:1: When I turned over the diary, I found that it had also been written in from the back toward the front. It contained a piece entitled: Woman viewed categorically.—Pap. III B 48 n.d., 1841-42 Deleted from margin of Pap. II B 48: N.B. it is best to make the little investigation into an ele- ment in the diary itself—Pap. III B 49 n.d., 1841-42 Deleted from sketch; see 311:26-27; 313:28-315:5: N.B. It probably would be best to have the so-called actiones in distans keep pace in between; that will provide the correct I B50:1 139 558 Supplement elucidation and show the nature of his passion.—Pap. HI B 51 n.d., 1841-42 Deleted from sketch; see 311:26-27,; 313:28-315:5: N.B. The diary must not begin with Cordelia’s story but with the first actio in distans, which is in the blue book. —Pap. III B 52 n.d., 1841-42 In margin in copy of Either/Or, I; see 311:26-27; 313:28-315:5: (‘“‘actiones in distans’™): *See p. viii of preface to the volume of Schelling published by Rosenkrantz in 1843.!28—Pap. IV A 232 n.d., 1843 Deleted from sketch; see 311:30-313:9: 1. N.B. it is best to have three or four letters from Cordelia to Edward come after the seduction, letters that express her various moods: She has shown them to me but also has assured me that she has never been able to decide to send them to him because she could never make up her mind how she should re- gard him.
2. Edward [changed to: Johannes], I do not call you “my”; I know very well that you are not. I call you only my seducer, my enemy, my murderer—I call myself yours, and just as it once flattered your ears, now it shall be a curse for all eternity. Flee where you will—I am still yours, you cannot get rid of me. Indeed, the fact that I use this bold language demonstrates that Iam yours. You have made yourself guilty of the most dreadful rebellion of all, you have perverted a human being from a free being to your slave.
3. Edward [changed to: Johannes], The story of the rich man who slaughtered the poor man’s lamb.
4, Edward [changed to: Johannes], Is there no hope for me at all. Will your love for me never Either/Or, I 559 awaken; for you have loved me, that I know, without really being able to explain what makes me sure of it.—Pap. III B 50:1-4 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft: see 313:27: From The Seducer’s Diary. No. 1 In margin: actio in distans [action at a distance]. —Pap. Ill B 68:1 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 316:15-17: But what engages her attention is indeed multiplicity, yet multiplicity with a certain higher light on it, [deleted: for, just like the Christmas season, Christmas gifts also have some- thing ceremonious, a nobility,] which brings them closer to heaven.
In margin: a reflection of earthly pomp and glory.—Pap. III B 68:2 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 316:23: bse dee vital; it is for the eye what it is for the ear when a little wooded area is hushed and quiet and suddenly a nightingale warbles and the area comes to life.—Pap. III B 68:3 n.d., 1841- 42 In margin of final draft; see 317:6: From final draft; see 319:12-15: Consider only my external appearance. They have nothing to fear from me; I not only look like a nice man, but I do not look at all like a cavalier. My figure cannot, of course, make any impression, and does not demand it either; they can easily see on me that I am a thinker accustomed to live in the world IH B 50:4 140 560 Supplement of abstraction, and to that a young girl certainly forms a per- fect contrast.—Pap. III B 70:2 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 19:35: You disappear—no doubt we shall see each other again, but for a time this handclasp will be a puzzle to you, difficult to reconcile with all the rest of my behavior.—Pap. III B 70:3 n.d., 1841-42 From draft; see 319:37-320:1: Monday, then, one o’clock, at the exhibition. Very good, I shall have the honor. A little rendezvous. 1am downright cu- rious, for it was quite dark and I was unable to distinguish the features of any of them. All the better, all the better for my ob- servations. I will show up at half-past twelve.
In margin: No. 3.
In margin: No. 3.
See 325:11-12: One has achieved tranquillity when, like the Alcedo ispida [kingfisher] (ice-bird), one can build one’s nest upon the sea.— JP 11023 (Pap. I A 612) n.d., 1837 In margin of final draft; see 325:11-12: pera s the name of this bird must be in my excerpts in the oblong book at home—Pap. III B 55:1 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 326:4: reread thus to paddle one’s own canoe.
In margin: I collect myself within myself, say a prayer just as soldiers do before the battle, but the collecting within oneself is no work but a pleasure, an ambiguity implicit in the Latin colligere se [collect oneself].—Pap. III B 55:2 n.d., 1841-42 Now I must again go out into society. Gradually I have been buying up a lot of small claims, now the time of payment is here. —In this respect, too, my principle will always be able to hold its own. One must not seek them first at social gather- ings, in families, etc.; there they are always to a certain degree armed. But casual contacts first—later comes the harvesting. The more surprises one can manage, the better.—Pap. III B 84 n.d., 1841-42 Deleted from sketch; see 326:32-327:28: You barren mother of a countless brood—the only thing left when those ancient gods were conquered, when eternity gave birth to time, when time gave birth to eternity, but you es- caped.
Cursed chance, you my only confidant, the only one I deem worthy of being my ally and my enemy, always like yourself, always incomprehensible, always an enigma, you whom I love with all the sympathy of my soul, I who am created in your image. Cursed chance, why do you not make your ap- pearance. I do not beg, I do not humbly plead that you will make your appearance in this manner or that; I challenge you to a fight. Why do you not show your bare neck, or has the balance wheel [Uro] in the world structure, the restless [urolig| balance wheel, also become still [rolig]?* 1am seized with anx- iety; I believe the world is coming to a standstill from bore- dom. Cursed chance, I am waiting for you: I do not want to be so foolish as to want to vanquish you by means of princi- ples, by what people call character. No, I want to wrestle with you. I am like a temple dancer;** I have consecrated myself to your service. Light, thinly clad, limber, unarmed, without preparation, I own nothing in the world, I care to own noth- ing,t I have nothing to lose, but I want to wrestle with you. I do not come with long incantations. Show yourself, surprise me, I still want to wrestle with you. What shall we fight about? I have nothing at stake, and yet I offer the proudest condition that may have been offered you—let us fight for honor.
I B 179:28 196 Ml B 179:28 197 562 Supplement *or has your riddle perhaps been solved; have you plunged yourself into the sea of eternity. “T have nothing to do; I renounce everything in order to serve you, in order to dance to your honor. tand you no doubt are also accustomed to such a battle. —Pap. Il] B 179:28 n.d., 1841-42 In margin of final draft; see 326:36-327:2: 5 Terns that proud time when mankind ruled the world, when eternity gave birth to time, the only remnant that re- mained, when time again sank down into eternity, but you es- caped.
In margin: that time when necessity gave birth to freedom, when freedom let itself be tricked back into the womb again in order to be born anew.—Pap. II] B 55:3 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 328:16-19: From sketch: Good morning, Madam! Are you going to the market to do the buying yourself. —She is pleased with my conversation. She is accompanied by a very beautiful maidservant with a market basket on her arm. Maidservants have always de- lighted me. They are such small diverting conquests—he who has no taste for maidservants shows eo ipso that he is culturally retarded.—Pap. III B 77 n.d., 1841-42 From draft; see 328:34-329:6: Now, why do you not remain standing in the doorway; why did you peek out? There is nothing offensive or peculiar about standing in a doorway during a shower. Moreover, one cannot even tell that you are not entering the building. But Either/Or, I 563 now that I have seen you I know that in the strictest sense you are standing behind the door.—Pap. III B 78 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 330:14-16: The bird builds its nest in the beech tree; no bird builds its nest in the spruce except the wood dove—she was like that...—Pap. III B 56:1 n.d., 1841-42 From sketch; see 330:19-21: wr cna and yet what are all the diplomatic secrets of the world compared with a young girl’s secret.—Pap. III B 36 n.d., 1841 From final draft; see 331:13: The best thing at a dance is all the small advantages the danc- ers enjoy. The conventional freedoms do not signify much precisely because they are conventional and because a male dancer ordinarily does not have anything special in his favor, and ordinarily it is a very ambiguous compliment to a man when a girl says he is a good dancer.—Pap. III B 56:2 n.d., 1841-42 In margin of final draft; see 332:3: I could wish that I were a painter, for this moment in a girl’s life, precisely because it is only a moment, actually can only be painted; since it presupposes no development, it cannot be de- scribed.—Pap. III B 56:3 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 332:4-6: Therefore, a woman is born twice; when she marries, her maiden name is said to be this or that. Actually it is only one birth, of course, but it is so long that it forms a period of its own.—Pap. III B 56:4 n.d., 1841-42 564 Supplement From final draft; continuation of 320:20: Big bes but she was not emptied by sentimentality or em- bellished with sentimentality like those fancied rich whom one seeks in vain to embrace, since their content has evaporated.— Pap. I] B 56:5 n.d., 1841-42 Deleted from final draft; see 337:14: ee who by his hot temper so embittered his only son that the latter, after many scenes, emigrated to America. The mother is also dead;—Pap. III B 56:7 n.d., 1841-42 Deleted from final draft; see 339:81: Look what happened to Tgnder.° Would he have died so wretchedly if he had not lived so isolated?—Pap. III B 56:8 n.d., 1841-42 Deleted from margin of final draft; see 344:28-345:2: If I were to tell my life story, I do not believe I would have many satisfied readers; they would no doubt soon be a bit ir- ritated because they would go away hungry from a table where so much enjoyment continually went past their noses.—Pap. III B 56:9 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 346:34: Edward; changed from: Fritz —Pap. III 56:10 n.d., 1841-42 From sketch; see 354:15-23: ee such really jolly zephyrs—you frisky fauns, play nicely with the young girls—but what good would it be for Either/Or, I 565 you if I do not join you in it, what joy would you then have from it?—Pap. Ill B 89 n.d., 1841-42 From draft; see 354:15-23: an bates the road is slippery today and it is windy. You jolly fauns, what joy would you have playing your game if there were no one who was enjoying it?—Pap. III B 85 n.d., 1841-42 From draft; see 356:20-15: Die eine ist verliebt gar sehr die Andre war’ es gerne [The one is very much in love the other would very much like to be] Indeed, it is hard to have to walk alongside, at most in the evening to be allowed to take her future brother-in-law by the arm, and even then by his left arm.—Pap. III B 72 n.d., 1841- 42 From final draft; see 357:4-5: Just so, resolute and gewaltig [powerful]. Several little features'*! from the blue book can be used here. It must be checked.—Pap. III B 135:1 n.d., 1841-42 From draft; see 358:9: ee then it often becomes rather scanty; there is nothing available for many tucks and folds. You are beautiful, my gir]; your lips, what health they breathe, your eyes, how shining, how pure. When you open them, it is like the fog lifting from the ocean in an instant and the shining dark sea reflecting the sky, like a dark cloud hiding the moon and now suddenly dis- 566 Supplement appearing and the moon is twice as bright because the cloud has polished it.—Pap. III B 69 n.d., 1841-42 From draft; see 359:9-10: siege ai a university graduate. —What is the use if he in fact has no job, if he perhaps has to break off again, but with a little coolness—Pap. HII B 93 n.d., 1842-43 From final draft; see 359:28-32: eer te there is a uniformity that renders superfluous even the courtesy that the woman walks on the flagstones. They do not seem designed for other erotic positions. Both bend their knees a little. One does not often see a man who walks with such a long stride, less often a woman—indeed, he can count himself fortunate; he has found a life-companion.
Incidentally, there is something about her. In margin: But you dear zephyrs, why are you so busy with that couple; they do not seem to be worth the attention—there must certainly be something in particular—why do you tug at the little scarf— quite true, it is indeed an unusually lovely neck.—Pap. III B 91 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 359:32-33: Now I have no more time; now I must go up to Heibro- plads.—Pap. III B 135:2 n.d., 1842 Deleted from sketch: So, on Vandkunsten lives a beauty like that—and I am ig- norant of it—Fritz, my boots—in order to bear in mind at all times my principal adventure, I have started to call my servant Fritz—his mere name then reminds me indirectly—Pap. III B 92 n.d., 1841-42 Either/Or, I 567 From final draft; see 362:31-34: Nec levis, ingenuas pectus coluisse per artes, Cura sit, et linguas edidicisse duas.
Non formosus erat, sed erat facundus Ulixes, Et tamen aequoreas torsit amore Deas.
O! Quoties illum doluit properare Calypso; Remigioque optas esse negavit aquas {Nor let it be a slight care to cultivate your mind in lib- eral arts, or to learn the two languages well. Ulysses was not comely, but he was eloquent, yet he fired two goddesses of the sea with love. Ah, how oft did Ca- lypso grieve that he was hasting, and say that the waters were not fit for oars]! de arte amandi, Lib. II, 1. 121 —Pap. Ill B 43 n.d., 1843 From final draft; see 363:37: There are various ways of intoxicating a woman bacchan- ticly; mine is the surest.—Pap. III B 58:1 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 364:2-4: ond He tem This is the one novelists always have in good supply on their palette and at every opportunity smear it all over the poor girls, back and front. It finally ends with having them blush over the entire body.—Pap. III B 58:2 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 365:1-5: My intention was to destroy the whole impression and then if possible take away from her the pathos and replace it with irony. It was too soon; I have let myself be carried away. I would give anything not to have done it. She became anxious, but her anxiety had nothing tempting for her; it was only un- heimlich [uncomfortable]. Anxiety is always a trustworthy 568 Supplement means, but it must tempt and lure like the song of the Lorelei, not deter. I must take stronger measures to awaken the pathos; as yet she is not sufficiently developed to go out on the depths; if only this episode does not make her afraid of water.—Pap. Ill B 58:3 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 367:15: ease that a carriage and horses awaited us. She would more easily compose herself in this unusual situation than in the conventional one. But, an engagement is a special matter. It is a public demonstration; I make an avowal that perhaps can involve someone in many consequences. Once one is engaged, it is soon public knowledge, and all the rest of one’s life one bears the stamp of having been engaged, something that al- ways denounces one as a person who has traveled on these waters and that in the future makes all mystifications difficult for one. Moreover, it is not so easy to extricate oneself. This, however, I fear less: it depends on how one conducts oneself. Above all, one must guard against coming in contact with the ethical, and an engagement can so easily take on an ethical character.—Pap. III B 58:4 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 368:6-18: seats And I shall never envy him his conquests, since they are all based upon a lie and thus esthetically have no meaning. He does not know what joy it is to be loved, loved more than everything in the world. It always becomes more difficult to poetize oneself out of it again, and yet it must be possible to do it, but it ought to happen so subtly that she does not even dare claim that she is deceived. We shall see. I shall do for the girl what I have never done for any other; I shall become engaged to her. It is a considerable venture I am making. I am well aware of that, but I still hope to receive the principal and inter- est again. I must have a relationship to her that gives me the Either/Or, I 569 peace to enjoy her development, which does not giddily seize the highest. —Pap. III B 58:5 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 372:31: Pe to she certainly does not love me, and if I were at this moment to bring her to do so, I would have to overwhelm her all too powerfully. For her to surrender to me out of fear alone or, rather, say “‘yes’’ would not be desirable either, although there always must and ought to be an element of fear that will definitely smother the prophetic. On the strength of my intel- lectual superiority over her, I may expect a “yes,” but since precisely in my superiority she sees the possibility of her free- dom, fear alone will not determine her.—Pap. III B 58:6 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 373:15-18: And why do I enjoy this confidence, because Iam not a cav- alier, because I am utterly indifferent, a purely intellectual creature, the most neutral salt in the world. Indeed, here it pays off. I say with Per Degn, I would not do without the Latin for one hundred rix-dollars.*192 In margin: *In fact, how poor my income was in the old days, when I was cavalier, compared with my present one.— Pap. Ill B 58:7 n.d., 1841-42 From draft; see 373:20-21: The moment had arrived—it was otherwise devoid of all fuss, kneeling, etc., which at this point would have been inex- pedient.—Pap. III B 61:1 n.d. 1841-42 Sidelined in margin of copy of Either/Or, I; see 374:26-27: That is, a book has the remarkable characteristic that it can be interpreted as one pleases. If a person talks like a book, his 570 Supplement talking also has the same characteristic.—Pap. IV A 233 n.d., 1843 From draft; see 374:29-30: She was completely surprised, thought I was mad.—Pap. III From final draft; see 375:19-28: So now Iam engaged. Who would have said that about me. In margin:...if Cordelia had a girl friend and would be honest, she would have to say: God knows what will come of the whole affair. There is something about him that tempts— and yet Iam not in love—Pap. II] B 63:1 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 375:31-32: It is manifest again here; something that has divine origin al- ways retains a meaning, however much one hardens oneself against it. Marriage, for example, contains a truth, even though to me at least it is rather uncomfortable;—Pap. III B 63:2 n.d., 1841-42 From draft; see 376:1-4: I have always made fun of engaged people;* therefore it will have significance to be engaged myself.
In margin: *That it is as ridiculous as it actually is I never re- alized so well until now when I myself am wearing the strait- jacket.—Pap. III B 63:3 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 376: 1-4: ee for an engaged person is actually an artist in the same sense as the virtuosos at Dyrehaugen, and an engagement is re- lated to erotic love as the displays at Dyrehaugen to art. lam really happy to make the acquaintance of my fellow artists.
Either/Or, I 571 Since my engagement is the only job I have in life, I can totally devote myself to it; I can live solely for my engagement, un- disturbed even by consideration of my promotion in the Cus- toms Department.—Pap. III B 63:4 n.d., 1841-42 In margin of Pap. II] 63:4: Incidentally, it has interested me for a long time to come to see the world from the standpoint of an engaged person; I thought one might make excellent observations, that one would be regarded as more harmless, would dare to permit oneself many liberties. I had thought of hiring a girl to be en- gaged to me for half a year; now it happens otherwise.—Pap. Ill B 63:5 #.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 376:13-21: All such things I am willing to allow him, now that I am over the dangerous part. Prior to my having secured Cordelia for myself, he could not be allowed to confess his love; now it can do no harm. Now I have taken command; I can interpret everything. Her sympathy cannot be awakened to any signif- icant degree, for now it is an external impossibility for her to return to him. Indeed, why should I tear away the last hope. He is a good man; I like him, and who knows, he perhaps could be useful once again, he could always be really accepta- ble as a home for a widow.—Pap. HI B 63:6 n.d., 1841-42 From final draft; see 379:25: